i'm pretty funny i realized.
you fucked me up broham
i've always known what i wanted
and now that i have it
after learning unhealthy behaviors with you
i feel like if said unhealthy behaviors aren't present
you mustn't really like me.
which is bullshit and means the absolute opposite.

didn't i say i wanted this type of thing?
and now that i have it
i'm back in my old way of thinking;

that way that i hated
that way that stressed me out

why am i so fucking paranoid?
am i really going to have to teach myself to be in the healthy relationship that I've always dreamed about?