Transcendence

what i really want

is to pour porclean over top of everything.

i want everything to be soft, and pure, and cozy and close forever

and i don't ever want to move again

or get out of bad

or do anything at all

if it isn't curling up next to you.

i want everything in the world to stop.

i want everything to be covered in a blanket of snow so heavy

we can see

we can't move

we can't hear

we can only be

and with you

that's all i would ever need.

my heart would swell

and i would smile

and an effusion of disbelief, and thankfullness, and laughter would pour fourth out of my mouth

and i'd clutch you forever

and laugh

and laugh

and laugh

because you are all the good things in the world

i want you

to overtake me

i want to immerse myself in you and disappear.

i want to feel my atoms comming apart

and merging with yours until there isn't even a me anymore

until i no longer am

until all i am is pure happiness.

pure goodness.

pure bliss.

pure good.

pure.

you.

i love you so much

and everytime i kiss you

i feel like i take with me from you redemptive energy that washes over my body

and replaces all the negativity in me

little

by little at a time.

i want to kiss you now.

i want your sweet sweet mouth

and your sweet sweet skin and your sweet sweet soul

and i want to fall asleep inside of it

cushioned in glowing

warm white light

wrapped in quiet, and safe forever.

please let me come be with you.