i'm thinking

about cutting all of my hair off.
because i think i'm more attractive with long hair
and i just want morph in to something completely different.
i want to stop caring.
because i can't handle having any emotion anymore.
not happiness. not fear.
not infatuation. not sadness.

i don't know what i want to do at this point.

run away
with ridiculously short hair
and like, get a tattoo or something

do something i really regret.
show that i really don't care anymore.
because i won't.
because i can't.