the world is so awful

not really though.
not at all.
it's rather lovely actually.
what is awful?

one time
i traced my fingers around the sharp edges
of a pop can
and made myself bleed on the way to Wexford
for thanksgiving dinner
in a dusty smelling garage.

it wasn't really so bad.

and one time
when my face was oblong
and i was covered in sandpaper
fruity pebble colored molecules
the little white stones in my body were snapped
and someone received me
and smiled
because it wasn't really so bad.

years ago when all i wanted
was to want to be the Pit-stop instead of Penelope
i was 15 psychiatrically
because today instead of growing up
we grow down
and now in the form of the skin i'd shed and left for dead
i'm haunting myself
my hypocrisy
displayed through the naive lyrics
of pathetic little girls who are counter productive in each and every production they produce.

barbie eat a fucking sandwich? if you weren't so stupid
you'd understand
that if it was that simple
if it was really about the goddamn sandwich
Barbie wouldn't have a fucking problem.

Stop complaining.
The world is wonderful
Life is Wonderful
And even though you think it could be better
I guarantee you, even if everything you wanted to change
changed
someone
somewhere
would find something
to think is AWFUL.
I'm going to Stratford-Upon-Avon.