this is good.
this is a good thing.

nothing can control me anymore.
nothing can hurt me anymore.

i'm finally happy
and the sad part is
i could have been all along.

you could be too
if you would just let it all go.

i'm starting to feel less scared about things that used to grip me with panic.
liquefied sugar cubes;
licks of blue dye;
tea that doesn't make me feel like puking;
three slabs in between two processes
alongside
partially hydrogenated
once-were spuds

i can get out of this.
and i never realized before how freeing it would be until i got a taste.

this was all just a laughably horrible night.

i'll wake up tomorrow
and grin bearing teeth i didn't brush the night before
thinking about how glad i am
that it was all just my imagination.







i'm so happy. i've never been so happy in my entire life.
i'm going to go to school work,
because the temptation is to not

and i don't give in to temptations anymore.