this is what i want

i want to sit around
and listen to the Mountain Goats and Benjy Ferree
i wanna discuss my philosophy on life, and existence.
i want to watch documentaries and physics lectures and and laugh a lot.
i want you to know i feel the way you do.
i want you to know that i know you don't' want me too
and don't believe i do
because really
i guess i don't.

i want to starve
and kiss
and sleep
and lay
and puke
and starve
and kiss
and sleep
and lay
and puke

and watch movies, and read books; the good kinds, not Twilight, or Judy Blume.
i want to research things and talk for a little while and feel passionate.

what the fuck am i talking about?
i don't even know you.
you aren't even real.

i still think you're pretty though.
in my mind at least, you're very wonderful.
even though i've never met you,
and i don't even know if you exist.

i want to feel ok with you.