Before I Die

I want to have had millions conversations with millions of people.
Not just any conversations though.
Conversations that make them feel better.
Conversations that allow them to feel passionate about something with another person.
Conversations that make their mind race, and their hearts soar.
Conversations where those feelings are felt by both participants simultaneously.

my thighs are so red and hot
and my back stings,
and i have so many bruises and cuts on my legs.
my hair is so curly
my face is all freckled.

i feel so happy
and i've never wanted to leave this place any more in my entire life.
i feel so good.
and i know that if i just left, and kept going in the sun, forever
i'd find what i was looking for. maybe what i'm looking for is everything.
maybe i have a hunger to see more and more and more and more.
i'd canoe down rivers and stub my toes on rocks
and ride the currents in crisp clean water
surrounded by huge mountains.

i want somebody to love.
somebody to really love.
somebody i'm so in awe over
someone so incredible and heart breakingly perfect
that every time i see them
i think "how the fuck did i get so lucky?"

i want that person to feel the same way about me.

and then...
i want to wander forever.