i just want to stop being in my head
nothing feels ok
my mind is racing so fast
and my therapist told me
i sound like i'm crazy.

and it scared me
because i don't feel crazy
i feel like i make sense
and crazy people go crazy
without ever even knowing what happened to them.
i feel all panicky, and angry.
i can't stand being around this
i can't stand being around you people
i can't stand hearing everyone having answers
because i don't have answers
and i don't have no answers
i just am
and i want everyone else to just be too
so everyone can stop being so serious
but im a hypocrite because
i don't know if i do/don't have any answers
oh my god i can't even think anymore
i want to die so badly.
i want to die more than anything else in the entire known existence of awareness. ohmygod. oh my god. oh my god.
all i want is a cigarette. i want a cigarette so bad. that's the only thing i feel like i could handle right. oh my god. jesus christ oh jesus christ oh my jesus christ and god all mighty god oh fucking jesus might fucking christ and fucking heaven jesus mother fucking jesus mother fucking christ and jesus mother fucking mary, jesus, and joseph, and mary help me help me help me please somebody help me.