it rained a lot today

i dressed up really nice

i kissed, and posed.

i smiled and i smiled and i smiled

i bled in to your book

as i sat next to your brother

and imagined

that after this is lying in pieces on the ground

i'm gonna put that hook of my through his lips

sometimes, i think i let things become too serious

it's good that you don't care.

it's real.

it's healthy.

it's unjaded.

and i love you but i'm scared

because i love you

because this isn't too serious

i'm afraid you won't hesitate to hurt me

because you could

you have some power over me even though this isn't that serious to me either

even though

i don't Want you to have any power over me at all.

i walked home today in my bare feet

and it was the most ok i've felt in such a long time.

there water running down the hill in a little stream of rain water

and ever time i took a step,

there was this musical splashed that threw up beads of water on to my pasty looking legs.

i want to feel ok about everything

because nothing should bother me if i don't let it.