Is gentleness too much for us?

Some days
I really just don't have the stomach to be alive.

I want to take everyone-
EVERYONE
in the whole entire world
and hug them.

Including the people
who are the most mean to others.
Especially them, actually.

Because today, all I want to do is cry.
My head doesn't feel right. It feels like my brain is upside down
and I can't make myself want to do anything
besides going out
and finding everybody who's ever had someone make fun of them
and draping myself over them in fucking tears.

Most of the time, people are good.

But there I days I wish we weren't people
so we could be always good
but then i guess
we wouldn't be as complex or interesting or unique.

This blog is stupid.
I'm stupid.
I hate hockey.
I hate you.
And I wish you'd do something terrible to me so I'd have a legitimate reason.
It's too bad Im' just like her.